2012年6月30日星期六
因為你都知道
無論過了多久,都好像還沒有多久以前。
一直到現 在,我仍然不覺得你有走掉過。那些個因為你給不了我要的,我不忍是我讓你為難的日子,的以後,我很爭氣的自給自足,再怎麼思念都不肯找你。即使你和我就在 同一座城市裡,我不用打聽都能得知你的去向。可是你就像報紙頭條一樣,和我脫不了關係。
我不 知道的是,原來你和我之間的遠近,不過就像換季一樣,時間一到,你又回來了。一切都回來了。好像,你沒有傷過我,我不記得你使我流淚過。我終於承認,沒 有對方的日子裡,就是少了什麼。說不出來少了什麼。生活沒有比較困難。我們的不知如何是好,自以為了不起的沾沾自喜,僅只能寫在日記 裡。
原來是,存在我們之間的不僅是情情愛愛,還有比言語更多的什麼。你不用多說我就知道了。你一見我對其他人蹙眉就代替我回答,你一聽到我說我沒事就知道我有事。
有句话是酱形容:「無數片段的話語,一有風吹草動就紛至沓來。」
我更相信的是,即使我們有說也說不完的話,從曖昧初期的誇張情愛到閒話家常,鋪陳鋪張了還沒打算寫完的故事。可是使得我們至今沒能失去對方的原因,是我們再也找不到有這樣的一個人,一接近了就什麼都明白了。我們在找的,不過就是一個什麼都不用說,也都知道彼此的人。
我想給他一個擁抱,但我沒給;而我又來了,每次到接觸內心深處時,就是給自己一個距離,不去觸碰任何人。
可是我懂了,瞬間,我又看清自己一點。
好 友跟我說,真想不到六年過後,很多看法大家都不同了,我說,是啊。對幸福的定義,我們也不一樣了。但我們還是傻氣地天真,想去相信一些事情,去相信朋友、 去相信一個一起像電影「征服情海」裡,會給我們「寬」的境界,一起努力工作的人,可是很多事情,跟我們想像中的,都不大一樣了。
人生究竟會變得怎麼樣呢?
婚姻問題、家庭問題、工作問題、健康問題,路好漫長,都是取捨。
要放棄,要保留,要識大體,要小心眼,都太難懂了。
其實,大家都只是想要簡單的幸福而已啊,想要傻氣的可愛,白痴的勇氣,然後這麼直白的行徑,可以獲得上蒼的認可,可是,太難了。今天这个夜晚我特别想念........你。
2012年6月13日星期三
生日快樂 : 张育宁
每年的這個時候,我都覺得萬分幸福和僥倖!! 因為出生在夏天,我一直是個熱情的人。很容易就交到朋友,成為團體之一。唸書的時候,嚷着吵着去游玩,相约到很遠的海邊大吹海风。不然就唱完歌以後成群在海边买醉,天都亮了再拉所有人吃早餐。累了以後趴在同伴背上睡著,臉上還掛著笑。
出社會以後,我還是沒有收斂自己。我的工作讓我做自己,想說什麼百無禁忌。然後,我遇到了一些人,才知道不是每個人都和我一樣,以為真正的關係,不需要交代和解釋自己。然後我才學會,每一個人的時間和感情都太有限,不能對所有人都好,不能討好每一段關係 。
那對真正在意我的人不公平。最後我能給的,除了祝福还是祝福,和說我很遺憾,而已。
我不感謝傷害我的人,他們無意教我那些事!!我感謝的是不厭其煩救我的人:冒上得罪的風險,也要說出他對我多糟糕,我怎麼把自己搞成這樣。我怎麼可以!
有人愛妳,只是要妳好而已
所以我要說的是,謝謝一直到今年在我身邊的你們,我不知道自己到底做了什麼,才能讓你們继续留在我身边。我曾經讓大家擔了很多的心,為了我的不爭氣而生氣。可是你們究竟是像我的爸媽,從來沒有放棄過我。你们永遠只是關起門來說,不管別人怎麼批評。前天,生日蛋糕的燭光搖曳。照著我的臉,還有你們的眼睛。謝謝你們愛我,你們想見我是為了想我,你們為了我的生日高興是因為這一天才有我。
我會一直告訴自己:『一定是,要遇到比你們對我更好的人,才能交出自己。』
Thank you for an awesome birthday song!! . Your gift was spent on a really fun night out of dinner and a killer show. You made this year's birthday that much more happy. I miss you badly!!! Lol hahah
Thanks again MR .HO !!!!
2012年6月9日星期六
Cupid & Angel
Nothing lasts forever , But the memories remain ...
He decide to
push me away if we’re getting too close. It’s the way he makes you smile. How
every joke he tells you is hilarious. How he can annoy you one second, and make
you feel like someone special the next… Then you start getting nervous whenever
you talk to him. His instant messages become more meaningful to you, even if
you can’t remember what he was talking about, or if anything was important at
all…. Suddenly, the pieces start making sense and you realize- you really are fallen!!!!
You were the guy I thought about while listening to all those songs, the guy
who made me actually look forward to waking up in the morning. You were the guy
who could gonna tell me how I feel,
“
I’m scared!!!! Scared of being hurt again!! Scared of you are not the feeling in the same way!! Scared of fallen
harder!!!! " .
You understand me. You make me smile, Really smile. I never thought I’d like
you the way I do. I had to stop myself before, but now I’m not strong enough to
do that anymore.
Who had my heart, but never bothered
to do anything about it. He turned around and looked right at me and said
nothing. Not even say Hi… It was as if the days we spent together, the time I
spent thinking about him, just weren’t important, as if they never happened.. I
guess that’s what happens. You taught me so much, and now we don’t even talk to
each other. I guess that’s what happens.
I’ve learned that no matter
what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better
tomorrow. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship , you’ll miss them when they’re gone from
your life. I’ve learned that making a living is not the same thing as making a
life. I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you second chances. I’ve learned
that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hand; you need
to be able to throw some things back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide
something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned
that when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day,
you should just reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a
friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve
learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did,
but people will never forget how you made them feel.
Sometimes, all the answers we were looking for were hiding just below the
surface. Other times, we find answers when we didn’t realize that we were
asking a question. Sometimes, the answers can catch us completely by surprise.
And sometimes, even when we find the answer that we were looking for, we’re
still left with a lot of questions..
I think we all deserve better. I think
that boys need to make up their minds, figure out what they want. If they want
us, they’re going to have to fight for us, because we’re going to find someone
so much better than them, someone that actually deserves us, someone makes us
look at them and go “what the hell was I thinking?”
I love you. I love you not just because you’re adorable or because you’re
sweet , or because you’re my best friend.
I love you because you make me step outside myself and look at who I really am.
You make me want to be a better person, just because you are who you are. I can tell you absolutely everything and I know you will always listen.
For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want to be with someone you can’t get out of
your head. So that when your lips finally touch, you feel it everywhere. but
I’ve always believed that you have to be happy on your own before you can be
happy with someone else.
Love is when you find someone you can
really be yourself with. That you can share anything with, like a best friend.
It’s when you can’t even imagine what your life would be like without that
person. When words don’t even come close to how you really feel, and even
though it doesn’t make sense to other people, you know you’re meant to be
together.
For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want to be with someone you can’t get out of your head. So that when your lips finally touch, you feel it everywhere. but I’ve always believed that you have to be happy on your own before you can be happy with someone else.
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